Yes, and i'm glad i did it, because our first night, i discovered he had a great body : i would never have guessed that this guy with a not so "beautiful" face, and who was walking like Charlie Chaplin could have such a great ass and a slim and toned body under his strange clothes( he practiced a lot of swimming in his free time. He told me that, but somehow i couldnt anticipated his body would have been so tunning).
And God, god that he was very, very good in bed. He's in my top 2 of greatest lovers. His face didnt attracted me, but i grew up liking his face and i found him beautiful like he was. Not only is he a lover and good laid plan, but he is also a friend and a PARTNER.
A PARTENER. I did not know how much a level of respect, support and partnership could bring into a good, positive and respectful relationship before i met him. I have never, never been with someone who supports me this much, understand me like he does, comfort me when needed even when i dont ask to or when i try to not show i'm worried( i dont know how he always manage to see "how i feel").
He is someone a who push me to be the best person i can be. I feel like myself with him, no pressure, no shame of my body or my failures. He is the very type of genuinely kind, courageous guy with a big heart. I can BREATHE with him, i really feel "HUMAN" (since a very long time) with him. So yes, i'm glad his personnality charmed me before his sex-appeal.
I dont want white people to use it, and i dont want black people to use it neither. I know the word is supposed to have gain a positive meaning to defeat the racist meaning racists whites attached to it, but something continues to bother me about this word.