Lol at the people who justify their virginity by being able to bench a small woman.
Myself, I'm 25. A few months away from being 26. I'm a virgin. Not by my choice. Local girls don't like me much. I'm too different from what they prefer.
Also, I'm 6' 3", and about 275. I ain't fat, just big. I could be a damn scary looking dude if I could afford a gym membership. I also have read so many Tom Clancy, Steven Coonts and Dale Brown novels when I was little, my vocabulary all throughout high school was far greater than my peers, but that's not much of a bragging point when many of my peers struggle with words like "The" and "And."
All my bullying was emotional and mental, NO ONE physically ever bullied me. The teachers were afraid I'd snap and be the next school shooter. They noticed guys tormented me and girls ignored me.
So yeah, I think I know why I'm still a virgin, and my only decent romantic relationships were all online. I'm scary big, smarter than girls prefer, and I didn't put enough assholes in the hospital in High School.
Do nice guys finish last? Not always, but enough do to keep that phrase perpetuated.
It pays off to fight for what you love and believe in. Don't take things for granted, and don't get complacent. I've had only a few girls in my life I have ever truly, deeply loved, and I lost them because I'm not strong enough to fight for them.
Yeah, I'm sure sex is a wonderful thing, but I'm at a point now where if it never really happens, so what? It ain't worth it to me if there's no love there. I've loved and lost enough times before without ever having sex I just don't really care anymore. Being angry and bitter at the world feels better. And if I don't feel like using that, there's humor. I have some friends, they're nice people. Good people. I try to be nice to them, and decent to people I don't know. You never know when you may make a new friend.
But in the end, I don't see any reason to worry about sex anymore. Having anger and bitterness inside feels a hell of a lot better now. It helps with some of my writing. Good for fight scenes and dramatic moments of tension.
I think it's time to dig out a Behemoth album.
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