Nobody on this site knows me as well as the guys on DeviantArt, but I need to let this out badly or else I might explode.

I'm 20 years old and I'm just so far down in the dumps that I don't know how to get out. This level of anxiety should be for a mid-life crisis, not for a sprout like me. Yet it's all I can feel really; I literally do not know how to be "happy". I don't know joy in the sense that others feel it. I feel glad, but not the standard "happy". You wouldn't know it talking to me because I mask it, but it's there.

My comics and action figures really dumb down the fatigue, but only because I focus on them rather than myself. But it's so....difficult.

I need some help, so tomorrow I'm going to see what is going on. Maybe before vacationing I can get back to a semi-sustainable rythm (and possible get a new action fig before I leave)