Everyone knows I speak low of myself. I dont have a selfesteem. But i feel It is time I told everyone what i am, really. who i was born..How i became the person you all know. or you dont.

I was born to a single mother. I lived with her and her mother, which im living with again. I was and still am a dreamer, With passion and hope for everyone. I can see the light in the darkest soul. Sometimes i can bring that light out. I dont give up on anyone.

When i was four, my mother and my step father, and I where in germany. Living in apartments you know, the tall ones. One night, shortly after i had gone to bed, the apartments right next to ours blew up, a woman was made at her neighbors. So that night, and the next day, me and mom where giving blankets and soup to the people that had know where to go, from that, i learned to look after others, to watch over strangers, to leand a helping hand. To this day, i still do that.

When i was three, same place, My family and i Where marching, I cant spell what it was called but it was a hike that was 10 killmeters or something like that, it was long. Anyway i feel down into a dich, my father couldnt get to me, i couldnt see them, it felt as though i was lost, with tree's as green as anything else, the birds, the animals as free as in a jungle..i could hear them, but i couldnt see my parents, So i walked off, like father told me, till he could get down and get me. an hour latter. That taught me how to trust and not to be afread of the world around me, and to trust my inner gut. and my family. it also gave me a love of comfort to the wild worlds.

my mother taught me to not judge anyone by what they did. I did alot that i shouldnt of, but i learned from that. My past is shattered and torn by what ive been though, what i did to others, for that i value life. i value peace of mind and heart, I value friendship, no one is perfect, And i dont want anyone to be, without flaws, there is no true beauty! 

When i was 14 years old, I had something i never had before, Two friends, at the same time. we where so close, had so much fun, But I saw a girl, just like me,. she had no one, know friends whatso ever, So i walked over and befriended her. My other two friends said no, either be friends with us or with her, not both. I looked right at them, and i said bye then went to the girl that had no friends.  She had done some not cool things in the past, but it was cause no one gave her the option of the right path..she didnt know which way to go, cus no one helped her. so i did.

Now others may question my friendship with others. I have one thing to say, You can acept me and my friends for who we are now, and now what we where, or you can find another. I will not leave the ones in need alone for something they did in the past. For that matters none to me, what matters is what they do now. what i do now that shows who and what i am.

I am weak to points, but i am strong as hell at others. I have a fire that burns with passion as many of you know, I understand what others dont get, I can see what others miss! I can think things though, differntly than most others could even try. I will step before a truck to save a friend..a stranger, an enemy. I would die for anyone of you, just so you would understand what friends mean to me..

I had very very few friends, many kids poked fun at me, they dissed me, and turned against me, even ones that called me friends turned away and stabed me in the back, but i still would help them to this day. for that is who I am.