It's so funny, tonight I was planning on making an entry saying "Goodbye everyone, I'm done with comics"

That reason is because today Thunder World came out, a comic that contains the pure essence of Captain marvel in one beautiful one shot. For the longest time now my entire online presence has been one that defends Billy Batson as the true Captain Marvel, and one that campaigns he needs to get back to the roots of his character, roots that had been pulled away by the New 52.

My life hasn't always been easy, as many of you know I am disabled (and no I will not go into more detail on that, I prefer it remain private) I've also always had a very strained relationship with my parents, and in all honestly my younger brother is probably the only person I've ever felt truly close to. For me I've always looked for something more in life, something that I could love and call my own. Roughly two years ago with the release and hype of Injustice, and the New 52 having been kicked into gear, that thing was comics. Comic books were exactly what I wanted to find, something I felt close to, something that made me feel like I was part of something bigger. The one character that really stood out to me, and struck an emotional chord with me was Captain Marvel. At the time Injustice had come out I wanted to know as much as possible about all the characters, and when I was reading about Cap I loved everything about him, his history, his powers, his connection to western culture, but most of all what he represented, being good, no matter what happens. That was something I always lived by, and to have a character, an icon, who stood for the same thing meant a lot to me. As I said I've had a tough life, but I've never wanted to lash out or do anything wrong because of it, and that's always been a struggle for me, a struggle that Billy himself faced. Knowing a character like that existed meant so much to me, I felt so happy, life seemed so good. However that ended in a rather harsh way when I found out about what he was like in the New 52.

In the New 52, Billy has lost everything I love about him, he is no longer the good kid fighting struggle, he no longer has the same powers or costume, he doesn't even have his name anymore. To say this crushed me would be an understatement, this was awful for me I felt like I lost someone I just met, yet knew all my life. As you can imagine as time went on I slowly became who I am now, CaptainMarvel4Ever, someone who has done everything he can to try and regain that character I love, someone who wants other people to see what I feel like we fans have collectively lost, even if you don't know it yet, someone who always fights the uphill battle. The other reason being that Captain marvel was once the most popular hero in the world, children everywhere looked up to him, and I think taking away the name he had for over 70 years, simply to make him slightly more marketable is out of line. I am aware of the litigious history between DC, Marvel, and Fawcett over rights to the name and character, and frankly I think it's sad that today we still have to live with those consequences, when Marvel and DC could easily put aside their differences, and do what's right for the character/fans. That is why I feel the name is almost as important as Billy's good nature.

A while back, Marvel announced that Carol Danvers would be getting a movie with the title "Captain Marvel" and for me that was another crushing blow, because what that meant was DC/WB would never want to label Billy as Captain marvel ever again, because it would make him completely unmarketable. So for me I knew it was over, I could never win this battle, and in all honesty I could never be happy with comics, because of all these bad memories and feelings I associate with them. So I was gonna leave, but then many of you told me not to, that you valued my company and felt I should go. So I decided I'd wait for Thunder World to come out, and that would be it, I would end things on a high note with an original Captain Marvel story, hoping it would be a good one (and my god it was). Then when it came out it filled me with so much joy and happiness, hope and nostalgia it made me feel fantastic, however that wasn't enough to get me to stay, I still wanted to go. What got me to stay and write this, was everyone here. I wasn't sure what to expect people's reactions to the comic to be when it came out, and the last thing I thought was going to happen happened, people loved it. I saw comments all over the place (not just here) saying how great the comic was, how much they loved it, how they wish that's what Captain Marvel was. That feeling was the best of all, the feeling that for one day, i wasn't alone, everyone else wanted what I did, the Big Red Cheese to be himself, and suddenly with the combination of that feeling, the great story from Thunder World, and you all supporting me whenever I was down got rid of any desire I had to leave.

So here I am now, writing this message in place of a goodbye, and it feels great. I'm going to bed now, and tomorrow you'll see me here like any other day, being an even bigger fan then usual, loving comics like there's no tomorrow.

From the bottom of my heart

Thank You