@xenon_: Mercy caught the stark pain present in his eyes, that he attempted to obscure from his features, and she saw through to the center of it. That knowledge was only confirmed with his apology. Her own eyes darkened for a moment. She had him back, Catriona had him back, but that didn't erase the pain that his absence had brought.
She had never believed him truly dead. She knew his capabilities, his genius, his mind, all too well to believe that anything could truly kill him permanently, to believe that anything could erase his presence from all planes of existence. Mercy hadn't given voice to that belief, not even to Valerie. She knew that if anybody would have supported the notion that the majority of the world would have condemned as no less than delusional, it was Val - and she was perhaps realizing that Xenon would have, as well - but no, that was the one thing in her life she had kept from Valerie.
"No apologies necessary, there's nothing to forgive for what happened after he left us. We all deal with grief in our own ways."
Sighing, Mercy took in his words, fearing that this was more serious, and a more potent situation than she had initially believed it to be. "The pragmatic realization of this, Xenon, is that sooner or later, the Hellfire Club and those who seek to usurp it are going to come to blows. Whether they are behind closed doors, or it is all out war, surely there is no other conclusion. The Dark Hellfire Club was created for the express purpose of usurping the positions of the already-established Hellfire Club, and Alexandra Steele is nothing if not ambitious. Recklessly so, apparently."
Mercy had no ill will towards the Psyentist, at least not personally in regards to the shared history between her and Andres. The dissatisfaction and ill content harbored by her was over the attempted power play that was currently being constructed and played out before her very eyes. Mercy was no stranger to power plays and to backroom dealings. They had been her bread and butter alongside Valerie as the ruled the Upper East Side. But this was at an entirely different level.
"This goes against Andres." Her tone was quiet as she spoke, but filled with impassioned anger. Not just Valerie, not just her. Her beloved would never voice his ill opinion of this, not to anybody's face, perhaps not even hers. But there was an essential understanding between the two of them, an inherent connection. It was what lead them so easily from simply being friends who occasionally slept together, to the realization that it was useless to fight against what seemed to be fated. This was something that he would brush off with a joke, or as a non-issue, but she knew that it affected him deeper than that. Andres wouldn't speak his anger on this issue, not to Xenon, but Mercy was more than happy to step in and do so for both herself and her beloved.
"I'm happy for you, that you've found love, that you've seemingly found happiness. I find it perhaps a bit worrisome that one of the first things she wanted from you was funding to allow her to initiate this war, an attempted coup that puts both of you in the line of fire - both literally and figuratively speaking. Perhaps she would have gone through with it either way, perhaps not. But regardless of that, you're the one who lit the flame with your finances. There's rationale behind attempting to avert disaster - or even lessen it. But it's naive to believe that you will be able to avoid it outright, when the express purpose of the establishment is to usurp the previous Inner Court. That's not magically going to change."
Her brow furrowed with slight irritation as he relayed his emotions to her, explaining. "I hope you understand what's been ignited here. Because it's not just some love. And I don't want to take away from what you're feeling, and what you're experiencing, if that's what this truly is. But you must understand the repercussions that your actions have. Yes, Andres did love her once, and no he does not love lightly. That does not give the world blanket approval for loving Alexandra, and excuse or smooth away the actions done in the name of love, or the betrayals committed." She shook her head slightly while momentarily pursing her lips.
"I understand the merits of love and companionship. And I intimately understand the merits of finally finding the person who lets you be the best version of you, who...completes you. I never understood what any of those things were before Andres. He's the person who allows me to be the best version of myself, who compliments my flaws and my weaknesses with his strengths, the same as I do for him. I don't think that there's anything I wouldn't do for him, Xenon, and I hope that's what you genuinely feel towards Alexandra because you're coming very, very close to burning bridges irreparably. The beauty of what Andres and I have is that he would never ask that of me. He would never ask me to betray those I love and care for, he would never ask me to betray my own morals. He would never ask me to put myself in the position that you have put yourself in. So truly, I hope that it's worth it. Because if it's not..." She let the sentence trail off, hanging in the air. Oh, how emotions were so useless to her. They whirled in a frenzy. Suspicion, hope, happiness for Xenon, but they were all cut with the knowledge that a war truly was looming over them. The life that she lived had never been one conducive to idyllic and serene existence, as this so easily reminded her. She should have known that wouldn't last, it was silly to believe that it would.
"For everybody's sake, I hope this works out the way that you were planning. But Xenon...I also hope you know that sooner or later, a time will come where you will have to choose a side, and live with that decision." Her tone was soft as she finished, and imbued with sympathetic understanding of his plight. But that understanding, and the fondness she felt for him, didn't cloud her pragmatism.
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