Memoir for Noah
I like to think that as a child Noah was the sweetest kid no one could possibly hate. He didn't care about human/mutant relations, international politics, or becoming the highly gifted warrior Amaranth and his family believed he could be. Yes, he wanted to make his parents proud but at the end of the day all he's ever wanted was to love someone (namely a girl named Clarice) and give her anything she wanted so she wouldn't have to feel sad ever again.
It's because of this naive personality that he's been through the wringer, unable to give up hope even in the worse of people. He either loves too strongly or blindly hates those who call him immature. Because of this he tends to be brash, go half cocked, rush training or forget teachings all together. He doesn't do it intentionally but he doesn't have his heart in it...but he won't give up in fear of being called a disgrace. He's troubled that way.
I like to think I've got a one of kind well rounded character. He's brash yet fragile, scared but persistent. If I ever make it to the HOF (something I oddly aspired to be a part of in my prepubescent age) this is what I wanna be remembered for. Now onto my dramatic things
I joined the vine four years ago. I was pretty much a little kid, just turned thirteen and amazed by comics all together. So when I find this site (unintentionally) I was blown away by all these people and their common love for writing, reading, and discussing this culture I had stumbled upon. And at first I was no good, horrible even, called a noob for months on end but I never gave up. Yeah it hurt my feelings from time to time, I think DC mocked me once, but rather than leave I kept going. I've always had this thing where I won't abandon a project until I prove at least one naysayer wrong.
What I decided to do was create a personal goal of sorts. Create a character I thought would represent me, what I wanted to be, and a layer of malleability (allowing him to grow just as any true person would). His name shifted from time to time, but eventually Noah was born. He's me in a sense - indecisive, complicated, and very much confusing from time to time. I think that translated to well since my posts over the years have been either a mega hit or disastrous fail.
And I know I haven't been the best person to be around. I've had a year where I was totally annoying, a jerk, and ranted every now again. Though some issues I handled were justified....others were handled wrongly. Regardless I stayed, insulted by the lack of respect I didn't have. I know you gotta gain that, I know it can't just be handed over, but I've personally thought and correct me if I'm wrong I like to believe I'm one of the more nicer people on this site. I like to believe although this is an internet community, that some of you guys consider me a friend like I consider some of you. So I never understood some of the flack I get like I've stolen someone's girlfriend and got their momma pregnant.
Maybe it's my eccentric persona that can be off putting. I ask for compliments, criteria, feedback...not because I want my ego stroked but because I wanna know if my writing has progressed since the summer of 2008. I crave it. I want it. I need to know if the character I made...this sorta quasi representation of who I am has caught any traction or something. My writing can be confusing at times...i get that...I have too many ideas...and sometimes it doesn't translate too well.
And before this piece becomes a hot pool of emotion the point of this entire shabang is too explain who I am, how even through the arguments and tirades, even through my sporadic activities that I appreciate each and every one of you. You've helped me grow, pushed me when no one in RL really bothered, and now I'm heading off to college to chase this silly dream of writing professionally.
This is my sorta goodbye...this will be the only damn piece of documentation where I admit I actually appreciate the egos and weirdly veiled perverts. I like to believe with the help of you self involved madonnas, over enthusiastic Europeans, and guys using female characters (I made that a mainstream) I've become a pretty good writer. So thank you. I hope to God this made sense and I will never ever say something of this magnitude ever again.
College is coming so I may not be around as often as I'd like or writing as much as I want (here anyway), so this is goodbye in the sense that sooner or later I'll be gone all together. And if for some reason I'm online for far too long some body better tell me to finish my college work.....I can't be failing xD
Did you Read?
If you read all of this well good golly I think we're probably friends. Now it's late...really late....so *sings round of applause
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Thank You :D