ok, i have read (minsue the quotes from hell) the last three pages, And out of all the things that turn you men off, I think the one that gets me is the fat one.
Yes, 300 is a problem, Some of you know me, some of you do not, Im not self centered, Im not careless or hurtful to the point. I care, I think about others more than myself. two years ago, i almost reached 300 pounds. This was after my child was born.
You say, 'if i can keep in shape they can.'
it helps if at frist you where already in shape. The fat isnt there to lose when your in shape, But what if you where so depressed you couldnt see past the darkness within the mind, Everything was in a fog, and you hated yourself Beyond what your body looked like, but hated what was in side you..for so long that you forgot what you looked like.
What if you where trying..trying to get out of the fog, trying to just make sence of everything, but every time you walked outside your damn door, all eveyrone saw was your fat, not your eyes, not your beautiful smile, not the fact you where trying..but all they saw is what you hate, making you hate yourself even more.
Growing up, my mother was 250 all the time, she tryed everything to lose weight. i am 266 right now, Ive been walking, dieting, starving myself just so men and women would at least talk to me..show that i am not some peace of fat meat on the side of the road, and it is men like you, that make it so hard to walk out side,
so how about, instead of just turning away, talk to them, it can help them, and you at the same time.
if you are going to resond to this, pm me, Im not coming back to this thread.
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